Sometimes I Just Need Help?

Question by inlovewith.rory: Sometimes I just need help?
Lately I have been completely in a dark hole. My mother and I have no good relationship. My dad is on drugs, and I am not allowed to see him as much as I would like to. I recently gave up all of my friends, because they are involved with Harsh drugs, and I would rather not be associated with that, but I have a boyfriend of 2 years that I live with ( in my parents home, he lives with me for substantial reasons), Right now though I feel like I am losing everything. I was once very suicidal ( about 2 years ago) but with help I pulled through. But I feel myself slipping into that again. I feel no worry of my life anymore. I feel like I have nothing. I honeslty feel like giving up. I know that is the most selfish thing a person can do, but I just feel like my body is slipping away.
I refuse to be put on anti-depressants, because I do not believe you should let a pill control your mind. I just need to vent. I m not the kind of person to tell anyone my problems. I just need to get them out.
me and boyfriend are 17 and 19

he just has problems with his family than he is resolving.
I feel uncomfortable telling anyone about me or my problems

I cant believe I even got the courage to put it on here.

But i will deffinately consider the counselor
My boyfriend is very mature
he is entering into school to be a web page designer and its just easier with him around me

we have controlled sex thats not the issue at all

i am in highschool with a 4.0 gpa

eVERYTHING other than family and friend and my self issues are okay ex: schooling, work, hobbies

It just is comlicating

Best answer:

Answer by Meltedplasticbag
well just try to talk. if you need help im always on.

Answer by Roy K
Anti depression drugs just limit the amount of the depth of fellings of depression , just like (some) weight loss drugs limit how much of a craving for food you have . If the feelings are less over-powering you can deal with them better , until you get things under control and can deal with things without the pills .
How old are you and your bf ?
If your dad is on drugs , your ex-friends are druggies , your bf has some “limitations , and you were suicidal … This shows you are in a very bad situation . I advise you talk to a professional .

This is the best advice I can give you without more information (and time ) : The secret of life is to become your own best parent(s) , Ask “What would I do (or be doing) If I had been brought up by two (almost -lol) perfect parents ? ”
Would you be with a guy that lives in your mom’s home for these reasons ? Would you not be making good attempts at finding meaningful things in your life like a career or donating your effort to the needy , or even learning to play guitar or ice skate ?

BTW 420 is a harsh drug , and alcohol is dangerous to play with .

Exercise and being out in the sun are very good natural anti depressants ! Alcohol IS a natural DEPRESSANT ! Yes it is ! It removes inhibitions for awhile by denying oxygen to the part of the brain that exercises control , but it is also a depressant . And you can’t do much to make your life better while you are buzzed or hung over . Dark chocolet , bananas and other healthful foods are anti depressants . Google them !

EDIT … You are too young to be under such emotional pressure .You are trying to satisfy an immature boyfriend , your split-up parents , and yourself . You are distressed and cutting yourself to ease the pressure . If you had everything going for you a 17/19 (started 15/17 ! ) relationship would be difficult to maintain . My wife and I started 18/18 and it is amazing that we are now married 34 years .(We waited until we were 22 and stable .) But we had a lot of good things helping . We both stayed in school after high school and got decent jobs . And we did have many tough times because we were inexperienced / young . And we knew we couldn’t complicate or strain the relationship with children .
You NEED to get a H.S. Diploma and some extra ed. My wife started with secretarial school . You need to get this guy out of your home . His being there denies you the chance to act without considering him first . You are young . You need to grow . You need to control the sex so you don’t get pregnant ( or a disease – it happens – no matter how much you trust this guy ). At 19 your boyfriend should be able to support himself . Is he in school ? Does he work ?
Make some new friends that you can be “proud of having” ! And make them proud to know you !

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